Still on the Roller Coaster

Well, sadly I got the BIG Negative yesterday again. It is more sad than anything. I am grateful however that I have a beautiful family. Thankfully to my Kids Mom, I have been blessed to see five beautiful healthy children have fun and laugh. I know that God has a time for us and I am still faithful in believing that in HIS time we will be blessed  with the child God has created for us. As we continue on this journey please pray for strenght and security in Christ and his divine will for our lives. Encourage us and ask God to heal our hearts. This too shall pass!

Enduring the 2WW!

On last Sat June 16th we had our transfer of two beautiful little embryos. As usual I did my video message to my babies in case they survive! After my procedure, I told the nurses how blessed I felt that God allows us to try this and that he creates life but we are just keeping the mind busy while God does the true creating. The nurses were both tearful and expressed their gratitude for me telling them that I appreciate this journey. As the week is progressing, I am having some cramping on and off. The nurse told me to drink more water and rest often. She said the medicine can cause it. As far as my two friends going through IVF, one found out she is Pregnant and one found out she is not. I truly felt devastated for my friend who is not. All the raw emotions of the day I found out that my test was negative came back and I just felt like I wanted to reach through the phone and take her pain away. I do not wish this road on anyone especially those I love. I know that God has a plan for us all but this is just so difficult to hear. As far as me, I am happy and just waiting to see what Gods plan is next. Professionally, I am taking a gamble right now, applying for a higher position even though I know that I may not be as qualified as I need to be.

This weekend is going to be a big weekend our younger two boys will be here visiting. I am excited to see them and also to have out family together. Our daughter comes in on Wed so they will all be here for the news good or bad. I look forward to the time with them. I will check back in when I have some news. Until then take a peek at our babies before transfer! They are soooo cute!

Enjoying the roller coaster.

This last month has been an intensely fun event. We have been visiting family and friends, having bbqs and just enjoying being married almost two years in August. I can say this last few months has been amazing for our marriage. I just love that guy. I was blessed to have my best friend visit which offered complete joy and nostalgia!
June 4 and 8 I had an ultrasound to check my cervix getting ready for Saturday's transfer. All is well my lining looks great. I am however very calm this time. I have been blessed with two friends that are going through IVF right now as well and we have all been a comfort to one another. I have been more of a comfort because I am at peace right now. I feel so blessed that God gave me the desire to share may story and over the last three months I know my other purpose is to be a support to these other women. It is amazing when you are busy caring for others your own struggle isn't so hard to bare.

I am definitely ready for Saturday because the shear joy of thinking we could possibly have a postive pregnancy from this cycle is amazing. I however have a very busy week heading to a Detroit ball game at Wrigley and seeing family on Sunday for Father's Day. I so wish I can give hubby the ulitmate Father's day gift of baby news. I have decided Saturday will be called babyday! Wish me blessings. Hope all of you are well, be blessed!