A little bit of hope!

Our third cycle resulted in a negative. What do you think as a 34 year old woman who has endured 67 operations and countless defeat think what's next. I know God is able. Faith is the issue. The funny thing is we prayed the night before the test not for a positive result but for grace to accept God's will. The ability to accept all that God has for us and ask for no more than what he wants to give. I am persuaded that God will allow us to have a child together. So the plan..the doc wants to see if my immune system is killing our babies. Women that suffer from endometriosis (which we are not sure that I have) often have an exaggerated Tcell response that destroys the embryos. If that is so, then I will get IVIG or intralipids to help with that battle and hope to move on. The next step is to keep tryiing we have 10 embryos left and that means until the last second we will try. We pray for grace in that our children are already created and the Lord must bless us with them . I know that one thing is for sure every breath our children breath is blessed every evening when Jarvis comes from work safe and sleeps in our home I know we are blessed, he is happy and healthy and a blessing to us everyday. His brothers are missed and we pray for their safety. I know to have found my soulmate, be able to have a beautiful family is a blessing. I also know that there is nothing I won't do to have our baby. No needle or anesthesia or anything will keep  me from trying. With all that I am , I am a MOM.