As we head into our 5th and final transfer I have come to a state of acceptance. Yes, painful, yes overwhelming but at the same time peaceful. I have decided to accept God's will. Prayerfully we will get pregnant with this next transfer but if not we will not do IVF again. I guess I can't say forever because you never know but for right now. I am ready for peace. I am ready to move on to the next steps which may or may not include adoption. I know that I have tried all I can and now I must trust. It is so hard to trust God for this and I don't know why. I can usually trust for everything but I have had issues with this. I guess with my whole life having a lack of control of my body and what is happening to it I want some control over this. However, evidently I don't! Life is blessed, I am thankful for my profession, the students, my husband, family and the ability to have other options. Pray for my faith to be increased and peace to be full!
SokoSunflower~~
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